afternoon in prayer (words and other things)
things
on the finite
as a meditation
and destroy
I write this
as we move
we think of them
songs and rage
whisper love
they glow and
have powers unseen
words and other things
cvs
I thought I was pregnant. maybe I was just holding onto you. as if the last piece of you was still in me. the last piece of us. an excuse for you to hold me. be with me. but I’m not. and you can’t. and right now I cant. see you. I held onto hope. onto you. but now I know. it’s over. it has to be over.
I came to the same store as when I came with you. twenty minutes out of the way for two minutes. but I was drawn here. I know. I could’ve gone closer. I know. I could’ve gone home. but I needed to feel close to you. I didn’t realize. you never let me. close to you. I know now. I have to stand myself. while I thought you were holding me. maybe you were. just holding me down.
I’m heartbroken. I wanted a remnant. a reminder. of us. to be growing inside of me. but all there is. blood. flesh. the void. I know this is the end.
devour me
wash me down
with the stars
in the darkness
savor the sweet
the savior
look to the trees
and whisper a sad song
wash me down
devour me
until you reach the soil
and find me there
feel the wind
and let her hold you
whisper a sad song
wash me down
the suds grow
in the kitchen sink
stones breathe
let them skip
whisper a sad song
and look to the trees
tell time
to come back tomorrow
the dawn
a moment longer
wash me down
with the stars
let them run
into the sky
wash me down
with the stars
devour me
and whisper a sad song
to the trees
never too long
they bend
they break
in light of days
see the grass
let them feel you,
a gentle caress
she knows the way
wash me down
with the stars
bathe in the sunshine
and cry for the rain
blood of my love
eye of the earth
let the sky open
feast on my body
lay me down
let your hands run
whisper a sad song
in the darkness
with a breath
wash me down
with the stars
have you ever had sex?
where pleasure could be
is only a hole
a chasm
not to be filled
but to be lost
in you
skin
sheets
feet
where pleasure could be
a void
wait to be destroyed
avoid
where pleasure could be
hold
cold
cant be
controlled
not so
self assured
where pleasure could be
let go
feel low
its ok
to feel
to know
where pleasure could be
in you
I hope
you feel
too
in you
where pleasure could be